The Mind Game

When I was in Form Four, I had a dream. I wanted to pursue my tertiary education in a country they called: The Land of Freedom.
Now, in 13 days, I will leave Malaysia to this place I have always dreamt of, this place where I have never set a foot on, this place named The United States of America.

Yes, I am excited. But then, I do feel heavy-hearted too...Somehow, I wonder if I would leave the departure gate without shedding a single tear? Many of my friends couldn't wait to leave Malaysia. They are complaining almost every single day about being here. But when they really have to leave, I think they have to go through what I am experiencing now: Bearing the thoughts of being miles and miles apart from the family you love most, knowing that your mum would shed a tear or two at night, missing you, your brother who got so used to fighting with you but now have no sumo companion, your grandmother who is constantly worried about you yet feeling helpless not be able to be there to take care of you, or your close friends, who will remember you once in awhile, chat a little about you and then go silent, thinking how nice it would be if you were here gossiping with them.

It is difficult to leave the life you have been living for 19 years and you can't erase the memories, regardless of good or bad, so that you won't be homesick in the States.

Emo. I know this is the hurdle I have to pass. And I will because I still want to live that American dream. I will miss my parents, my home, my brother, my friends and those lovely people in Malaysia dearly. All of you complete me and no way am I going to be the bean that forgets the skin (kacang lupakan kulit =.=").

The life is a climb but the view is great.

Fantasy

There goes a quote: Fantasy is a lie one created in order to have a taste of the life desired that he or she could never have.

I do dream alot. Those close to me know that I certainly do fantasize alot (Not that manner kay?!) and most of them constantly ask why? Why bother thinking of something impossible or dramatic? Perhaps Vin Nie have issues with me being dreamy the most. Well, my roomie, nevertheless, is the complete opposite of me, realistic and pragmatic.

I find fantasies useful, especially during hard times like now. When guys poached my heart and ripped my soul off my body and when friends throw rotten eggs at me and expect me to handle them, fantasies are my best remedy, my best companions. Somehow, I am able to find some comfort in them.

To me. fantasies are the light in the darkness. The light that signifies hope. The hope that whispers to me everytime I fall down: Don't worry. Wait. Love will come. Friends will come. True hearts will come. And you'll be alright.

Fantasy is not a lie I have created in order to have a taste of the life desired that I could never have.

Fantasy is an end picture I have created in order to guide me to have a taste of the life I have always desired.

Boston Grill

Ahh~ Had lunch in Boston Grill. Weird experience.

1st: The shop is very red... and empty. Somebody told me it is one of the more popular food chains but then...

2nd: I ordered Tropical Island. The cup was very tall but then (there's always a but aye?) the straw is darn short. I had to basically drink straight from the cup. No logic.

3rd: The fishes in the fish and chips look like goreng pisang. And they are very tiny =.=" Taste was okay okay laaa...

Chze Huey's Birthday

Long time ago, I was supposed to blog this. But then, no time lah. So now I 'll make up for it=)

It took a car, a not-so-perfect-plan, a guitar, $$$, a musician, a fanatic dude, a future doctor and a blur me to make the birthday girl's day.

Weeeeeeeeeee.....

Initial Plan: Cycling AND picnic session at Taman Pertanian Shah Alam then to Chze Huey's Aunt's house then to Sunway Pyramid.

Unfortunately it rained. So bye bye Taman Pertanian. Hello Subang.

Somehow, we decided to go find itu si Teng Quan first. cz he knew the way to Chze Huey's aunt's house. But then, he had class =.=" So we had to wait outside his house. All looking hot and pathetic. I was repeating: Is he here yet? All the time. Kin Wee decided to take his guitar out and tayang tayang abit. Jun Mei and Chze Huey were "wow-ing". All out of a sudden, they got hyped up over John Mayer. Hmm~

*Looking out the window*

I yelled:" There! His car! His car! Finallllllllllyyyyyyyyyy...I am so gonna cekik him!"

So Teng Quan came and instead of bringing us to our destination, he sat at the roadside and performed his "WONDERFUL" guitar skills. Trying to be "yeng" like Kin Wee huh? Haiz...You are better off a drummer =(

Get what I meant?

Sama-sama SIAO.

Speechless =.="

Skinny Bones~

"Hand me my guitar!"

Mei Mei~

U can sit there TTQ. We ae going off.

So, after much "faster-lah" we finally proceeded to Chze Huey's aunt's house.

Still holding on to that guitar of his.

It's AMP SQUARE KARAOKE, Sunway Pyramid at night.

Buffet Dinner.

Ghostly.

They are the only ones who could sing.

Birthday Girl.

Cleaned.

After Karaoke we were like what about the cake? The cake shops are all closed. *squeezing brain juice* *ah-hark*

So we came out with a very lame excuse (secret) to shake Chze Huey off so we could think of something.

And Tah-dah!

Mini Jco doughnuts as the cake and Rocky strawberry as the candles!

I feel so "smart".

Sharon and I with our creation.

Kin Wee and his wife.

We had a great day!

The "I-CAN-PLAY-GUITAR-TOO" virus is somehow, spreading.

The time of our lives.Toodles.

Sibaraku Farewell~

Aunt gave me a treat. Farewell lunch she said.

Ate to my heart's content. Adding to the kilos...

I HEART MY FAMILY~

Back!

Am here in my lovely hometown: Malacca!

Gonna stay here for awhile before heading to the States.

Text/Call me if You wanna:
(choose any)
a) Hang out
b) Give me a treat
c) Give me some money (donate to the 'broke' fund) !
d) Miss me...awwww...I know you do=)
e) Want to talk to me. (Strictly no bitching. I so don't wanna gossip no more)
f) Give me more useful tips to cut down fat percentage
g) Hear me laugh or hear you laugh
h) Hear me cry or hear you cry
i) Think of me =x

Just think of me=)


Ahhh...it had been quite awhile since I last came back. So miss the people and food here=) Esp my family. *hugss*

You know... today I wanted to meet Kai Yin at Old Town, DP and after I parked my car, I have to turn a whole big round just to figure out where am I heading to.

Ultra blur, Ultra stupid. =.="

Just...

Noticed I got tons of University application forms to fill in...

Noticed I left out important details for my Visa =(

Noticed I haven't perfected my Concerto plans...

Noticed somebody loves somebody =)

Noticed I spent alot of time editing videos...

Noticed I have to say goodbye in approx 1 month plus =/

Noticed I have no more cash...

Noticed I haven't pack=p

Noticed I haven't lose a single kilo yet...

Noticed that I seriously need some good night sleep as Kai Yin said I have deep dark eyes circles!

Seriously need to speed up...Work faster!

So many things to do, so little time!